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What is Reality?

I’m pondering reality today.

Quite possibly, I’m even questioning it. Mind you, with a reality like mine at times, there really is a lot to question!

Is reality what we see, hear, feel, touch and smell around us… or is it what we think and interpret it to be?

I’m now questioning myself. Am I real? Am I even here?

Lately, I’ve been seeing quite a lot of helicopters flying hither and thither up above. Travelling this way and that, some slowly, some at speed. Most folk would say that there’s nothing unusual in that, and they could even be right… but the fact that I am noticing more of them, does that make it unusual? Take Monday, for example. I was at the place of W, and there is a lot of wasteland at the back, after an old abandoned factory was demolished last year. There’s nothing on the vast open land now, apart from a few piles of leftover bricks. It gets very windy when the gusts get up! Hovering above the land was a helicopter. A black and white one. Just hovering there. Perhaps they were searching for someone hiding out in the open. I don’t know. It didn’t make sense. Maybe I’m looking too deeply into things, and the pilot was just practicing hovering, as a learner driver would practice reversing around a corner.

Another helicopter flew over on Tuesday, so low I could feel the pressure from the rotor blades… within my ears. Within my head, in fact. I do find myself pondering the notion that something is going on, something that we will NEVER get to find out about.

It’s not very secret, if that’s the case though. They aren’t being discreet about their covert activities.

See? Covert activities are taking place around me. Everyday. I’ve noticed them.

Walking down a street, I get the eerie feeling that I’m being watched. A person reading a newspaper swiftly pulls it up to cover their face as I walk by… and they cough. As in code. There. Over the road. That woman on her mobile phone. She’s in on it. She’s interpreting the cough as I nonchalantly glance around. And, right on cue, a helicopter flies overhead. A car sounds its horn behind me; although it is on the road driving away from me. The woman with the phone waves at the driver. The car stops and reverses around the corner, and turns back on itself, pulling up beside the woman, who swiftly jumps in. The registration number on the car is… there isn’t one! It’s a black car, with blackened windows all around, and it is now pointing towards me.

I turn. The man with the newspaper has vanished from the bench where he was sitting. The helicopter travels overhead again – it’s circling. I notice an electronic advertising sign change what it’s advertising – I’m sure just before it changed I saw a video of me looking around. Nah – I must have imagined that. Why would all these people be looking for me?

It’s because I know they’re up to something. That’s it. It must be.

I’ll just have to pretend I know nothing and carry on regardless. Or maybe, that is what they want me to think…

Gah! All this second guessing has me circling just as all those helicopters seem to be doing.

It isn’t only helicopters and strange-acting people, though. When driving, wherever, whenever, at whatever time of the day, if I drive past a road junction, a car will either just be pulling out, or just arriving at the junction. Traffic lights turn red the moment I reach the line. Cars seem to be racing behind me on dual carriageways, yet pull in behind and don’t overtake.

And people I think I know surprise me all the more.

Maybe I only know a certain aspect of their character, and I’m noticing a different side to them I haven’t seen before. Does this make them the same person, or a different one entirely???

Or is it little ole’ moi who’s changed, and I’m seeing all these subtle differences around me; noticing a shift in reality, only slight but most definitely there?

I don’t know.

So, I’m pondering reality today.

Have you noticed any subtle changes lately?


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I Thought That Today Was Sunday

But not when I thought it, that is.

When I thought it, on Friday, I thought that tomorrow, Saturday, was Sunday. But today is now Saturday, and I know that it is Saturday now, but yesterday, Friday, I thought that today (tomorrow as was) was Sunday. I’m aware now that tomorrow, Sunday, is Sunday, and on Friday, apart from thinking that Saturday was Sunday, I never gave Sunday a thought. Apart from when I wrote this, as I had to think that I was in Saturday, when in fact I was still in Friday, but for continuity’s sake I had to act as though I was writing this post on Saturday, which is when it was written for, for Six Word Saturday in fact.

And thinking about it, the fact that I was writing a Six Word Saturday post on Friday for Saturday, I should really have known that tomorrow (today / whenever!) was in fact Saturday and not Sunday, as I originally thought.

I’m having a great weekend!

I hope that you are too!


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One Minute Ramble: Impatience

One of my work colleagues was recently talking about how impatient people are nowadays. And it got me thinking that that is exactly how the majority of people seem to be running their lives now. He was going on about social media, how everyone is so wrapped up in it, and everything is there in an instant, they aren’t fine with waiting for anything any more, or being patient. Now, I must admit I can be a little impatient. I can also admit that I do not use social media (apart from blogging, which, to me, only touches social media in the peripherals). You can see impatience everywhere. You don’t even need to think about looking for it, something will highlight someone’s impatience within a matter of seconds.

So, I’m doing a little experiment. Here I go again. I’m going to take things nice and slow for the next few days. I’m sure I’m going to annoy some impatient people, but I annoy them when I’m not taking things slowly, so what’s new?

The only thing now is… I can’t wait to get started with the experiment. Sigh.

Not off to a good start, am I?

Time’s of the essence
As I do four things at once
None done very well

Why take it easy
When there’s so much fun to have
Joining the rat race

I’d love to eat food
But I just swallow and run
And I have no taste


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Wordle: Attire

I dress
I confess
Like I belong to a sect
But I don’t
And I won’t
Go down that channel
I inject
Humour no less
As a treat
To this tale
To traverse
The torrid
Turmoil
Of the world
Out there.
Draw a line in the sand
Check
And align
With what’s best
Well, what’s funky
And most surreal.
That’s how I deal
With most of what’s real
And the mess
Of the way how I dress


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Lateness or Neverness

Lateness or Neverness…
Which is the betterness?
And can one be forgivensome
With no good excuse?

Lateness or Neverness…
In the realms of togetherness
Need something not troublesome
With not much to do

So, Lateness or Neverness…
Lateness is betterness
‘Though it can be cumbersome
With the words that I use

I don’t know about you, but I’m still caught up in a weird vortex. Part of me is a day ahead, another part is a day behind, and my blogging is all over the place. I’m still scheduling my posts (I don’t know if you’ve noticed) to keep myself vaguely on line, and commenting here and there, VERY sporadically. I’m getting by, although not as smoothly as I once did (I am smooth. You may or may not have noticed). I will get back into the swing. Into the groove. Into the rhythm (yes! I spelt rhythm correclty, first time – although I spelt correctly correclty so it doesn’t really count!) in due course.

I just need to free myself from this vortex, is all.

This morning I woke with that fabulous Friday feeling. It soon fell flat when I realised it was Thursday.