Beyond the Sphere

From Manchester to New York City in a split second!

I’ve always, well for a very long time, wanted to visit Iceland. There’s something about the island that is ‘reaching out’ to me. I don’t know what it is, but it is a very strong feeling that I have to go there someday. It’s not an urgent feeling; it’s more like something to look forward to. And I haven’t gone yet as I like the feeling, if that makes sense. Since the Eyjafjallajokull volcano started erupting back in March, Iceland has been in the news quite a bit, and it has also been in quite a few documentaries.

I love places of interest, and historic places. I’ve been to Nazareth, which really had an amazing feel to it, although it didn’t look like I expected it to. I’ve been to the Pyramids in Egypt, the ones near Cairo, and I couldn’t take my eyes off them. Stunning is an understatement considering their size and how old they are. I’ve been to Conway Castle in North Wales (and other castles around the country) and try to think of how they were when they were newly built – I also try to imagine how the people who used them went about their day.

Years ago, when I was at school, I was doing a project on the USA, for some reason. I’m sure it was in my French lessons too, which seems a bit bizarre, but that’s the memory I’m getting (school was a bit of a just go and get it over with place. I loved the learning, but didn’t like the speaking in front of the class sessions, the PE, or the bullying.) I gathered loads of brochures on the USA from some travel agents and cut out various pictures for my project. Like the feelings I’m now having for Iceland, I was having similar feelings for New York. The Empire State Building. The Statue of Liberty. The twin towers of the World Trade Center. I made these the centre pieces of my project, and then other things related to the USA were sub-topics around them. I don’t think I wrote the project completely in French either, but there must have been some French words thrown in. I can’t speak a word of French now, but always remember ‘listen and repeat’; ‘écouter et répéter’ or something like that. Apologies if that’s wrong, but it’s how I remember it! Anyway, in the early nineties I had the opportunity to go to New Haven in Connecticut, which is the state next-door to New York, and of course we went to New York City. We went via the train, which ended up becoming the underground in NYC. Got off at Grand Central Station (the one with the big clock) and then walked out of one of the doors into a side street. It reminded me of Manchester. A side street in Manchester. I thought ‘I’ve travelled all this way to come to Manchester’ and I remember feeling underwhelmed. Absolutely underwhelmed. (I love Manchester by the way, but was expecting New York to be the New York from my project.) We then walked round a corner and we were slap-bang in the middle of the New York as I imagined it. The wide roads, the long straight roads, the yellow taxis, the very tall buildings, more yellow taxis, the hundreds of people walking about – I was blown away by the fact that I was actually there. It was as though the universe was teasing me with that Manchester side-street in New York so I would be even more surprised by what I experienced. And I’m glad that it happened that way, for that is one amazing experience I will never, ever forget.

Another place I am having a ‘calling’ to, although not as strong as Iceland, is Machu Picchu in Peru. Another historic place where I’m sure to visit one day.

Full circle

I remember one of the characters in ‘Buffy the Vampire Slayer’ saying something along the lines of “The hardest thing to do in life is to live in it.” I think that is really just a matter of balance. Going on from what I said in my previous post, about happiness, how we live our lives is entirely up to us. We can choose to be happy, or not. We can choose to make our lives easy, or not. Everything is down to how we see it. Our perception of the things around us makes the basis for how we live our lives. The thing is, it seems to be so much easier to see the negatives, or point out the failures, or think things are not good enough or we’re not worthy of good things happening to us. Yes, it is easy to think that way. Just as it is easy to think the other way, too. A failure isn’t too bad when you think of it as a lesson learned. Sometimes, things aren’t good enough, but that’s no reason to see the negative side of it, just look at it from a different angle and make some improvements. I’m well worthy of great things happening to me, and, do you know what? They do.

I know that now. Years ago, only ‘bad’ happened to me. Actually, that’s a lot over-dramatic. Only ‘bad’ happened at the same time as all of the good things that happened. I chose to focus on some of the events that were happening to me from the negative viewpoint, and could only see the ‘bad’ from there. Some of those ‘bad’ events have become lodged in my memory, but they have been modified over time to seem even worse. I’ve used an amazing system called Emotional Freedom Techniques, or EFT, and some of those memories no longer have the same effect on me. The memories are still there, by the way. When I first started using, or doing, EFT, I started to feel queasy, so stopped it. I’ve recently found out that this is quite normal though, as the system is ‘cleaning’ the ‘bad’ away. Whenever I use EFT now, I feel fine. No, in fact, I feel great! I strongly recommend you have a look into EFT if you have a chance.

I think the quote above was from the musical ‘Buffy’ episode, ‘Once more with feeling.’

And feelings are an important aspect of how good our lives are. If we’re not feeling good, we’re noticing more things that aren’t good. When we are feeling good, we’ll see more things to make us feel good. Sounds obviously logical, doesn’t it? This is one of the key areas where the Law of Attraction works its magic. The universe is providing it’s part in helping us to see the universe how we feel it should be – you may want to read that again – I’ve had to read it a few times to satisfy myself that it does make sense! So, to add to the confusion just a bit, we are actually telling the universe to show us what we feel we are seeing. We are part of the universe (remember, the one-ness) so in effect we are telling ourselves what to see. Therefore we are telling ourselves what to feel. Everything comes full circle. We can choose whether we have an easy life or not.

Saturday Happy day!

On one of the forums that I visit, one of the posters has reminded me that our ultimate goal is to be happy. The material things like houses, money, cars, and other possessions, are nice to have, but they are not really of any use if we are not happy. Having loads of friends is nice, but what use are we to them if we are un-happy and grumpy all of the time? ‘I want to be happy’; it’s not a strange thought, is it? It’s not some kind of ‘new-age’ thinking, or religious brain-washing. It’s not a way to take over the world with a radical movement. Nor is it a stretch of the imagination to actually achieve.  Happiness is just there. Free. For the taking. Screaming ‘have me!’  From now on, I’m going to help myself to great big loads of the stuff. OK, I’ve not yet got that great big house that I keep dreaming of – but I’m happy now, just the same. My job isn’t as rewarding, fun, enjoyable, thought-provoking or interesting as it could be, but all that aside, I’m happy. I’m even happier when I’m not at work! I don’t have the biggest circle of friends in the world, and those I do have I see once in a blue moon, so that gives me more time to be with Me, and make sure that I’m happy! All those years of bullying and tormenting I endured throughout school from teachers as well as pupils alike may have dented my perceptions of other people slightly, but that is no excuse not to be happy now. The fact that I was (and still am) rubbish at every sport on the planet does not give me the right not to be happy. No matter how hard I try to think of a reason why I shouldn’t be happy (and some reasons are VERY convincing) one word pops into my head just afterwards. That word is ‘and’. With a question mark after it. ‘And?’ Who would have thought it? One small word that is used over and over again, and generally isn’t noticed the vast majority of the time, is one of the fundamental key issues in the pursuit of happiness. Well, I’ll be. Happy.

Happy I was last night too. My regular haunt hadn’t closed last week as expected; it’s closing this week instead. So I got one last chance to sit in the same place where I have for the last three-plus years. I was asked if I would be going again tonight – I said I would, but now I don’t think I’ll bother – one, to save a little bit of money, and two, it’ll be open again soon with a new name and a new look. The place where I always sit may still be there.

For the rest of today, Happy Saturday, I’m planning on chillin’ out! Popping round to Mum and Dad’s this afternoon, watching Smallville and generally doing absolutely bugger-all! Not doing, just being. So today, I am living up to the trade description of the species – a human BEING. Can’t get much better than that.

Here’s a quote to finish with…

Do not take life too seriously. You will never get out of it alive – Elbert Hubbard

Part Two!

Another weekend is here. Time certainly is flying by. It only seems like yesterday that we in Britain were deep under snow, but that was four months ago! I think it’s a bit colder now, but other than that the feather’s wine!

Another day spent at work finished at 5pm. I’m not going to write about it, because, well, there aren’t really any words that describe what actually goes on there. I get paid for doing my job, and that’s that. Work time is just the time between doing everything else. It has to be done. So it is.

Now onto better things. I watched Emmerdale for the first time in ages last night and was surprised to see Suzanne Shaw from Dancing on Ice is now appearing there. I was made up for her when she won the ice skating – her dance where she was flying was amazing – I have to check it out every once in a while on YouTube. The actor who plays Aaron seems to be doing a good job. It’s traumatic enough to come out, but to have to do it in court in front of everybody, well, that just adds to the trauma.

I think I’ve actually gone back in. I don’t know what has happened to me over the last few years. My fun personality has been replaced with something completely different. I was never one for great conversation, a bit on the shy side, but I always managed to enjoy myself and have a laugh every day. I still have a laugh and enjoy myself now, but not like I used to. There’s an action point for me. More on this later!

I think I’ll go out tonight. I usually go out just once a month nowadays and I went out last week, but feel like popping into town. I’d love to say paint it red, but my paint colour wouldn’t pass the trade’s description act. Going out will have to suffice. Still, I’ll enjoy it. I’ve got a bit of a problem though. My usual haunt has closed down for a refurbishment, so I’ll need to visit somewhere else. Decisions, decisions on a Friday night. Ah well, onward and upward.

Speaking of onward and upward, I’ve just got back into (I think) the first series of Smallville on the SyFy Channel. Didn’t see last night’s episode though as the Sky Plus thingy clashed between Smallville and Emmerdale, and Emmerdale won. That goes to show that things are meant to happen. I was meant to see Emmerdale yesterday. I’d actually thought I’ve seen all of the episodes of Smallville up until the last series, but obviously not. It’s always nice when you get to see something new!

So there’s a bit more about me. I told you there’d be more.

Hello world!

Well, hello indeed!

I’ve decided to start blogging. See that picture up there? That’s the universe, that is! Well part of it. I’m not sure if it’s the part that I’m in, but thinking about it, it can’t be, as I’m here and that’s there. But thinking about it more, the uni-verse is just one rhythm, and everything is part of that one-ness, so I am in that universe. And it is in me.

I’m loving the universe, and everything in it.

I don’t understand a lot of what is going on in it, but I’ve decided to use this blog to try to get my thoughts and experiences into some sort of order. They say out of chaos comes order, so we’ll see. Not that my life is chaotic or anything, I must add.

As well as loving the universe, I’m a fan of cartoons (so expect to see a lot of them in my blog – and many thanks to the creators who, unless they read this, won’t know that I’ve ‘borrowed’ their work.) I’m a bit of a dreamer, and my imagination runs wild at times, so there may be times that my blog will make no sense whatsoever (it will do in the grand scheme of things, I promise!) I believe in the Law of Attraction, Cosmic Ordering, Witchcraft, the power of the universe (hence the bit at the beginning… see a bit more sense got!) Sadly, I work Monday to Friday, so don’t have much time to do very much nowadays (like exercise, lose weight, socialise, have fun etc.) but I try to do a bit. There’ll probably be a bit more information about me throughout the blog, as it is about me.

I try not to be judgmental but sometimes it’s hard not to be when I come across something I don’t like. All I ask is that (if you decide to read my blogs on a regular basis) you don’t judge me too harshly. Words on a screen can be interpreted in many different ways to their true meaning, and I mean no offence in what I write. But if you do judge me harshly, I’m not that bothered – it’s your own judgment, your own personal thoughts, and anything personal of yours has nothing to do with me. Oh, and remember the Power of Threefold Return (usually applies to deeds, but can work for thoughts too!)

I’m also writing a book. I’ve not actually started it yet, but have been planning the plotlines for the last few months, so occasionally, I’ll try some snippets out on here, to see how things look. The book will be an acclaimed success – I know that much!

I’ll not use any real names in my blog (you didn’t really think I’m called Aquatom, did you?) and promise to stick to the truth (unless I’m posting excerpts from my book, or other made-up stuff) and will ‘pad out’ other details of my life as the blog progresses.

This is a work in motion. I hope it will be fun (I intend it to be, even the heavy stuff). If you want to come along for the journey, you are more than welcome. If not, I’ll be here if you want to pop back every now and then to have a nosey.

And here’s a bit of fun for today’s blog…

Until next time!