Releasing my Blocks

I’ve been experiencing all kinds of things getting in my way today. While I was in work, for some reason I had to ask for help with a situation that I knew how to handle. So I was even getting in my own way!

While driving, other drivers would be going very slow, or deciding to turn suddenly or stop suddenly in front of me. Traffic lights would change to red and stay that way for ages (I always say twenty minutes because it feels like I’m waiting that long… but it isn’t really!) While swimming, other swimmers would be swimming at me. Parents would be waiting in front of me, asking their child to kick their legs. Kids would be flipping themselves upside down in the water, or dive bombing into the water, ignoring anyone else who is in the pool.

Regarding swimming, don’t get me wrong. It is a public pool, and everyone is entitled to use it. Occasionally, others will get in the way – it’s just the nature of going swimming. But tonight, every length I swam there was somebody preventing me from completing it fully, without me swimming around them.

When I drove home from the pool, other motorists would be driving slowly, preventing me pulling out onto the main road, only to speed up after I had pulled out behind them.

So, something is trying to get a message to me. I’m either trying to do something too fast and I’m being slowed down, or I’m being guided to stop. Everything happens for a reason, and whatever happens to us, we attract into our lives whether we are aware of it or not. The question is what am I being guided to do (or not as the case may be…)?

The majority of the blocks occurred in the pool, so this would indicate something to do with my swimming. I’m sticking to my seventy lengths an hour at present, which isn’t too fast, so I don’t think it’s that. However, I did do 74 lengths today, so I may be pushing things if I try to increase the number of lengths I swim at this present time. It might have something to do with me wanting to lose weight quickly… maybe I’m rushing into that too quickly, and need to take things a little more slowly. Now there’s a thought. But, having said that, I’m not losing weight quickly – I have lost half a stone since I began swimming, but since then my weight has been constantly the same. So maybe I’m just being advised to keep an eye on my weight. It can’t hurt if I do this, so there’s one thing I must do as a result of what has been happening around me recently. I must also try to be less impatient when I am swimming. I am conscious of the time, and try to rush to get all of my lengths in. I don’t need to rush that much as I can swim all of my lengths comfortably in an hour. There we go, answer number two.

The blocks while driving seem to be pretty highly noticable at present too, so maybe these are telling me to chill out a little, take things easier. It doesn’t matter if the lights are red for ages. It doesn’t matter if someone else is impatient on the road… they’ll soon be seeing their blocks too. There’s no point rushing in heavy traffic, so just go with the flow. I can categorically say that the blocks while driving are not telling me to slow down, because I don’t speed. I always stick to the speed limit, which may annoy other drivers. But if I’m chilling out while driving, they’l just have to overtake me or chill behind me. I do find some other drivers frustrating though. The ones who use their mobile phones whilst driving. The ones who wait in a box junction while other cars are waiting to go in a different direction. The impatient drivers who are driving that close behind, they are practically in the boot. And the couldn’t-care-less drivers who weave in and out of the traffic to try and beat the queue. Perhaps I’m being advised to not even bother about these other drivers, which I know, deep down, that is exactly what I should do. They have no idea that I am frustrated by how they are acting. I can’t do anything to change it, but by thinking about how they are acting I am bringing more examples to me to notice. Yep… that’s it! I’m being advised to stop concerning myself with other driver’s actions.

So as a result of whatever blocks I have been coming across today, I have gained three positive actions that I must undertake in order for my experience to be better:

1. Keep an eye on my weight and don’t expect to lose weight too fast – my health is important

2. Be less impatient while swimming – I can easily swim what I need to within the hour

3. Do not concern myself with the actions of others… they are external to me and my happiness is within. I can’t change what is going on around me, but I can change the way that I think about it.

I feel better already for typing that. It’s sometimes easier to write about what has been going on to gain the clarification needed rather than to just mull it over in the mind. Within a short time, all of these negative blocks of mine will be released, and I can bring more events into my life that will improve my happiness. And that most certainly is not a bad thing.


I love the fact that everything is energy. I’m not a quantum physicist or anything like that, and I suppose that I could be being told utter twaddle by the people who are quantum physicists, but I feel that what they are saying is correct. No matter what is put under a very powerful microscope is revealed to be made up of atoms. And these atoms are energy.

I’ve never seen anything under such a microscope with my own eyes, but I have seen a hair magnified to such a level so that I could see tiny splits in the sides of the hair. So, if I can see this much detail on a hair, I believe that if I were to put it under an even more powerful microscope I would be able to see it at it’s atomic level.

These atoms may be different depending on what is being looked at, but going further into them will ultimately reveal that their energy is the same. So, whether I’m looking at a skin cell, a stone, water or air molecule, everything becomes the same. Source Energy. And so it is that this Source Energy connects us to the universe around us.

I believe that it is this connection that allows our cosmic orders to be delivered. I believe that it is this connection that brings coincidences into our lives. I believe that it is this connection that can make us feel more alive and in the moment. Some people say to bring peace to yourself, you must ‘be at one with your surroundings’. Well, at this sub-atomic level, we are all at one because we are all Source Energy. And I believe, that no matter what you try to do, this connection will never be broken.

Thoughts are energy. Sound is energy. Movement is energy. Temperature, electricity, love – all energy. Light – that’s energy too! We can feel the energy in the weather. We can feel the energy at different altitudes. We can feel the energy after an argument (regardless of whether we were witness to the argument or not). So in feeling the energy in situations such as these, we are connected to it on a physical level, as well as the quantum level. And just because we stop thinking, or the wind stops blowing, we haven’t broken the connection… we are still connected to the Source Energy because it was there at the beginning, during and after whatever else it was we were doing.

I own a clear quartz crystal pendulum, and every now and then I hold the pendulum over the palm of my left hand. I imagine the Source Energy cascading over and through my body, and filling my body and my surroundings with positive energy. I don’t have to think of this positivity very long, and the pendulum rotates very strongly over my hand. So strong in fact that I can feel it tugging away from my right hand. Sometimes, the circle it creates can be horizontal over my left palm as it spins so fast. I do not make the pendulum spin myself, as I really have no need to do that. The energy does it for me. I would recommend that if you want to connect with the energy at this level you obtain a crystal pendulum for yourself. In this case, seeing is believing. I am extremely grateful that I can feel the energy at this level.

And speaking of levels, Source Energy is of a high vibration, so it is easier to reach when in a relaxed, feel good state. It can be reached when we are feeling lower in the vibrational scale however it may not be as easy to tap into. The better we feel, the easier – and sometimes the stronger – the connection.

Again, it all comes down to energy.

I’m feelin’ good!

I’m feeling pretty good with myself today.

No, that’s not true. I’m feeling fantastically good with myself today! Yes, things could be better – they always can – but what I have to feel good about right now is why I’m feeling good! This isn’t a cryptic post that goes round in circles and just says the same thing… although that is actually what it says. I. Feel. Good.

I feel good just saying I feel good.

And here’s a question… do we need a reason to feel good? Can we feel good just for the sake of feeling good, or do we have to do something, have something or be something first, in order to feel good?

Think about this. The most miserable, unhappy, ungrateful person you have ever met receives a cheque for a million pounds. Will that cheque change them overnight into the most cheerful, happiest and thankful person ever? I think probably not. The reason why I think this is because at their very core they are happy in being miserable, unhappy and ungrateful. Some people may change slightly for the better, but they will not be happy if they didn’t have something to be unhappy about. Some people may even change for the worse, and become more miserable, more unhappy and more ungrateful (if that’s possible).

Here’s another example. A happy chappy who springs out of bed in a morning, is always smiling, and thoroughly enjoys whatever it is he is doing receives a cheque for a million pounds. Will this person change any for receiving the cheque? I think probably not. The reason why I think this is because at his core, this chap is happy anyway. This is just another bonus to help him to continue to be happy. Some people may become even happier, and others may become less carefree with the money, but they will still be happy.

These feel good feelings come from within. It doesn’t matter what it is that you are doing, as long as you are feeling good doing it. There is no point doing something that you don’t feel good about is there? If a friend wants to do something that you don’t want to do, but you do it anyway, you can start off not feeling good as you are doing something that you do not want to do. You may find that you begin to enjoy doing what you are doing, and so your good feelings will return, but if not you will eventually stop doing whatever it is.

It’s all about how you feel. If you do everything for everyone and don’t enjoy doing it, you can start to resent doing it. Then, the people who you are doing the things for will start to pick up the vibes that you are not happy and before long you can all end up in a very awkward situation. Just concentrate on the things that make you feel good, and you’ll find that more things that make you feel good will come to you. It works the other way too, but I’m not writing about that here. Positivity only please!

If you just concentrate on what it is that you feel good about, people will notice. They’ll ask questions like ‘how can you be so positive?’, or ‘how can you be so happy?’, or ‘what do you do that’s different?’. Pat yourself on the back whenever you are asked questions like these, because they’re your proof (as if you actually really need it) from your outside world that you are doing things right!

If you aren’t asked questions, by the way, it doesn’t matter… the people around you just haven’t noticed. It isn’t their fault – obviously they are living their lives just as you are, but they aren’t noticing all of the goodness that is all around them. One day they will. And take note if you find yourself thinking that someone you know is always happy or positive. Remember, you bring things into your life that match how you are feeling, so although you may not be feeling one hundred per cent positive when you first think ‘what does she do that’s different to me…?’ there’s a reason for the thought to be there.

Go ahead. Feel good. You can’t lose by trying. Feeling good part of the time is hundreds of times better than not feeling good any of the time. The more you practice, the better it gets. The easier it gets. The more contagious it gets. The more you want it. To a point where you feel good all of the time it doesn’t matter. Then you really will be feeling good!

So, I’m feeling good. I still have areas of my life that I would like to be better, so I’m not at the stage where I feel good all of the time, but I feel I am at the stage where I can consciously make myself feel good when I’m not (if that makes sense…). So, if I’m feeling one hundred per cent good a third of the time, and I can consciously make myself feel good another third of the time, that leaves me with one third unaccounted for. I think this must be when I’m feeling good when I’m asleep – having a good night’s sleep so I can feel good the next day! And not being awake – or aware – of the goodness that is around me when I can’t consciously make myself feel good.

I’m not perfect. I’ve still got work to do. But I am going to enjoy doing it! And why not? I do like feeling good, after all…

Things to do

Here’s my to do list.

Well, it’s actually my list of things I would like to do at some point, and with my positive mindset I will be able to achieve some, if not all, of them.

Own my large dream house (I don’t know if I’ve mentioned my recurring dream of my large house with loads of rooms and fabulous gardens, roof gardens and terraces… I’m sure I have, but I’m sure to mention it again at some point in the future. Hopefully when I get to own it! Well, you never know…)

Own enough money to be able to do with as I please. OK, maybe not millions (but that would be nice also) but more than enough for me to achieve the life that I really desire. Obviously, I’ll need the money to be able to own my dream home, so maybe this should be number one…

Own a luxury yacht. I’d have to have a crew too, as I don’t know how to drive one… and wouldn’t really want to drive it while cruising around the med in it.

Have more me time, whether through working either part time, or owning more than enough money that I don’t have to work. However, I would need to do something. So…

Own my own business. Be able to employ a selection of people. Run the business how I would like to be treated, rather than just being a number. If I do own my own business, that would be the first thing I would need to get sorted – the exemplary working conditions.

Meeting my Guardian Angel and/or Spirit Guide. How amazing would that be?

Write a best selling series of books. I’ve got the ideas for the characters, I’ve got the ideas for the stories, and I’ve got the ideas for the titles… all I need to do is make a start. I said that about going swimming, and I started that without a problem.

Learn one new thing every day. Now this isn’t a difficult one, is it?

To continue to be a positive person. To use the positivity to drive away any negative aspects that come into my life. Use my thoughts better when I’m feeling frustrated. Use everyone I meet as a teacher for something (love that one… read it on a Twitter update!)

Create something that would be of benefit to everyone. I’m not really an inventor, but would love to come up with a really simple idea that really helps.

Learn to fully experience Lucid Dreaming. I really would be able to go wherever I wanted to then.

Take more amazing photographs – and ensure they are backed up this time!

Learn to use magic in a good way. Rather than casting spells for things that I want, casting them for things to help me…

Learn to have more faith in myself. In my abilities. In my confidence. In my creativity. In my friends.

Meet fascinating, fabulous and friendly people and become good friends.

Be able to help and encourage others to go for their dreams.

And there will be more. I’ll save them for another list, I have quite a few here to be getting on with. In fact, I’m placing a Cosmic Order for each of the items listed above. I trust that the Cosmos will deliver to me the item as and when necessary, and I am grateful for two things. Firstly, for my orders being delivered – I may be so excited when my order is delivered I’ll forget to say thanks straight away – so I’ll sneak a quick thank you in here. And secondly, for the chance to be able to request these items in the first place.

I know I can achieve some of them now. Even before the wheels are set into motion, I’m starting to see results!

The Galaxy

I’ve been reading the BBC News website regarding the ancient cosmic light that has been recorded by the Planck telescope… fascinating stuff. Here’s the BBC article, written by By Jonathan Amos, the BBC News science correspondent:

Planck telescope reveals ancient cosmic light

This is the extraordinary place where we all live – the Universe.

The picture is the first full-sky image from Europe’s Planck telescope which was sent into space last year to survey the “oldest light” in the cosmos.

It took the 600m-euro observatory just over six months to assemble the map.

It shows what is visible beyond the Earth to instruments that are sensitive to light at very long wavelengths – much longer than what we can sense with our eyes.

Researchers say it is a remarkable dataset that will help them understand better how the Universe came to look the way it does now.

“It’s a spectacular picture; it’s a thing of beauty,” Dr Jan Tauber, the European Space Agency’s (Esa) Planck project scientist, told BBC News.

Dominating the foreground are large segments of our Milky Way Galaxy.

The bright horizontal line running the full length of the image is the galaxy’s main disc – the plane in which the Sun and the Earth also reside.

In the way

This is where most stars in the Milky Way form today; but because this picture records only light at long wavelengths (microwaves to the very far infrared), what we actually see are not stars at all.

Rather, what we see is the stuff that goes into making stars – lots of dust and gas.

Of particular note are the huge streamers of cold dust that reach thousands of light-years above and below the galactic plane.

“What you see is the structure of our galaxy in gas and dust, which tells us an awful lot about what is going on in the neighbourhood of the Sun; and it tells us a lot about the way galaxies form when we compare this to other galaxies,” observed Professor Andrew Jaffe, a Planck team member from Imperial College London, UK.

But as beautiful as the Milky Way appears, its emission must be removed if scientists are to get an even better view of its mottled backdrop, coloured here in magenta and yellow.

This is the famous cosmic microwave background (CMB) radiation, and a key target of the Planck mission.

The CMB is the “first light”. It is the light that was finally allowed to move out across space once a post-Big-Bang Universe had cooled sufficiently to permit the formation of hydrogen atoms.

Before that time, scientists say, the cosmos would have been so hot that matter and radiation would have been “coupled” – the Universe would have been opaque.

Super-cold detectors

Researchers can detect temperature variations in this ancient heat energy that give them insights into the early structure of the Universe and the blueprint for everything that came afterwards.

A major quest for Planck is to find firm evidence of “inflation”, the faster-than-light expansion that cosmologists believe the Universe experienced in its first, fleeting moments.

Theory predicts this event ought to be “imprinted” in the CMB and its detail should be retrievable with sufficiently sensitive instruments.

Planck is designed to have that capability. Some of its detectors operate at a staggering minus 273.05C – just a tenth of a degree above what scientists term “absolute zero”.

Planck is already in the process of assembling a second version of the map. It has funding to acquire at least four versions.

“We know that eventually as the data get better and better, what you end up getting to are the limitations of what you know about the instrument,” explained Professor Jaffe.

“And so, by running Planck for longer we can learn a lot more about the instrument itself and thereby remove a lot of the contaminating effects that are just because of the way it produces its noise.”

Patient analysis

The project team will need a while to analyse all the data and assess its significance. A formal release of fully prepared CMB images and scientific papers is not expected before the end of 2012.

However, such has been the anticipation for Planck data that one or two groups have already tried to make unauthorised interpretations simply from the images released to the media like the one on this page.

But Dr Tauber says this activity is pointless.

“The CMB is certainly visible but the image itself is colour-enhanced so you couldn’t do any science with that,” he explained.

“We have also reduced the resolution of the image to something which is more manageable for people to look at. Otherwise it would just be too big.”

Planck is a flagship mission of Esa. It was launched in May 2009 and moved to an observing position more than a million km from Earth on its “night side”.

It carries two instruments that observe the sky across nine frequency bands. The High Frequency Instrument (HFI) operates between 100 and 857 GHz (wavelengths of 3mm to 0.35mm), and the Low Frequency Instrument (LFI) operates between 30 and 70 GHz (wavelengths of 10mm to 4mm).

The article also mentions which features other fascinating views of the cosmos in different light frequencies. This picture shows the visible universe, but I recommend that you visit the site to have a look at the other views…

What an absolutely amazing view!

I love the mysteries of the universe, and this kind of research is letting us see the universe in ways we have never seen before. I don’t think I’ll ever get a chance to see it firsthand for myself, but at least I can get to view it by the wonders of television and the internet. Actually, I do get to see it every day – but only from my perspective. And to think that everything I see, do and experience is just a tiny speck inside the image above it really is humbling.

What an amazing universe we live in.