Divine Mission-Possible

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I’ve been introduced to this Blogging Challenge in Sue Dreamwalker’s latest post.

Linda (Litebeing) asks… Write about your spiritual mission here on Gaia. Are you a lightworker, Starseed, forerunner, Indigo, or none of the above? What have you incarnated to do or to be? Describe your mission and your journey to achieve it. Are you delighted to be here? There is no correct answer, by the way. Make it your own.

So (or ‘well’) here goes… and please bear with me. The waffle is on!

The honest answer to the question, the short answer, for me, is that I just don’t know. I’m definitely on a path to somewhere, that is clear. I’ve been travelling this path for many years, and since the early 2000s I’ve noticed a considerable change within myself of how I view the world and how I connect beyond it. I’m somewhat of a contradiction, allowing myself to be pulled this way and that, more though by my own thoughts rather than the outside world.

I’m awkward. Socially inept is probably a better way to describe it, and I love spending time by myself. Writing. Reading. Creating. Anything that takes me both within and out of myself at the same time is ideal. I live (some of the time) in a fantasy world which helps me to Feel Good… although there are a lot of aspects in my real world that allow me to feel that way too.

In 1999 my quiet personality was pushed beyond its limits when I applied for, and got, a job as part of a training team for a large call centre in Birmingham. Speaking in front of individual strangers was challenging enough, but here I was to speak in front of groups of strangers. To me, I was nervously awkward throughout the months I worked there, but my confidence did grow, and I enjoyed what I did. I was sad when it ended, and was told at the end that the training provided by myself and my colleagues that for most of the new employees it had been the best training they had received. Ever.

That was quite a compliment, but I thought they were just saying it to be nice.

I remember in my first training session, there were fifteen fresh faces looking at me in sheer dread. Drained of colour, some dribbling as they tried desperately not to scream, I realised that they were just about to go over the edge. It was the third day of training, and the first technical day. Very technical. I could see that with some of the newbies it was information overload. I looked at them all, individually, and I felt for each and everyone of them. They had all started a brand new job, looking for a fabulous new experience, and they had me as their trainer. I had to do something to make them feel, at least, a little better.

My co-trainer and I gathered everyone into a circle in the middle of the room, and we asked them in turn how they were feeling. They told us. Some were fine, others not as much, all were confused. All I could say to them was that yes, it was technical. It was difficult, and confusing. But in one split second they will ‘get it’. We’ve all been in their situation. We’ve all had to learn the same thing. And everything new takes a while to fit into place. I tried as best as I could to reassure them that from then on, the training would be easier. Eventually, the day’s session came to an end, and our mini group session / huddle / bonding activity seemed to have worked. Everyone returned to work the following day, and it was a lot easier for all of us.

It was in that training room that I realised just how important the right kind of help can be to someone. We abandoned the training because the group needed the huddle. I needed the huddle for reassurance that I hadn’t lost the group, and I was determined from that moment on that this group were going to succeed, come what may. And they did. Not all with flying colours, but when they were live they were brilliant in their work.

Future groups had their own challenges, but we managed to get through them. And, we noticed, that other trainers had also adopted the ‘huddles’.

So, I learned that I wanted to help people. I still do today, although I don’t seem to get much practice at it of late.

Since those training days, something has shifted. Something has changed, and I’m starting to feel separate from other people… disconnected. I sense they look at me with distrust or unease. I feel they want to get away from me as quickly as possible or don’t want to know me. I see them treating me in a different way to how they do others. It’s an odd feeling, and these descriptions are the closest way to explain it. I get the feeling from current work colleagues and strangers alike. So, as the saying goes, obviously, it’s not them, it’s me.

So, I shut myself away whenever I can and write and draw and create… and occasionally paint. I write about the Sphere Beyond, sharing the light, Feeling Good, and keeping things light-hearted. I write, hopefully, in a way that will bring a smile, and I write as a way of keeping a connection with people. It’s a good job I like doing it… and it’s a good job I like my own company.

Before writing this post, I did a quick internet search for the definition of a ‘Lightworker’. I found references to folk who are intuitive, becoming more self aware, easily connect with people, spiritual but not religious, a powerful manifestor, somewhat of a loner and someone naturally drawn to ancient ways and/or nature.

I don’t know about being intuitive (maybe I am…!) and I certainly do not connect easily with people in the physical sense – but then one can’t be a loner (I prefer the term ‘a private person’!) and easily connect with people at the same time, so I’m guessing that each of these attributes are part of being a Lightworker rather than all of the definitions combined.

That made me think that each and everyone of us is a Lightworker. Some very aware of the fact, others completely clueless and others, like me, wandering aimlessly somewhere in the middle.

I share a lot of those attributes. I manifest. I have ties to 1642 and beyond. I love being in nature and interacting with any creature that wants to interact with me. I use crystals. I practice magic. I dream of Angels and flying… and Places of Peace and Tranquility.

And I write about dark forces in a light-hearted way. I write about love in a dark way. Like I said back in the third century AD at the beginning of this post, I’m somewhat of a contradiction.

Maybe I’m a Lightworker-in-training, hence the urge to write about the training session earlier, and I’m currently going through that technical third day. Only the third day that I’m going through is maybe a decade long. Thinking that way, the decade is almost over, and maybe my social awkwardness may reverse and I will become more sociable once again. I know that only I can do that, but I have to make sure that I am in the right place for me before I do.

Not that I’m in the wrong place now. I know that for a fact. I love it just how it is right now. Just enough awkwardness balanced out by my own fabulous ‘own time’.

One day soon, I know that I’ll ‘get it’, just as I told the training group. I’ll know exactly why I am here, and what my Divine Mission-Possible is. Until that day, all I can do, just as every other being upon this fabulous world of ours, is continue to learn.

And share a little light, in my own individual way.

Ready, Set , Blog! Divine Mission- Possible

Above, and very above (in the image that starts this post!) is the link to Linda’s post and blog challenge. Linda has asked that anyone who participates in this challenge to nominate somebody within their circle to also take part. As usual, I can’t pick one person to nominate, so I’m throwing the gauntlet down to any of my followers to post about their Divine Mission-Possible. If you feel inspired, and would like to share, then please do so!

17 comments on “Divine Mission-Possible”

  1. Hi Tom,
    i loved your post and found your interest to be a pleasant surprise. Sue is a good friend and I am pleased that she inspired you. I think you did an excellent job and your story about the training really made me think.

    I will ask you to do 2 additional things to follow the challenge rules: 1) please add this link in the body of your post. https://litebeing.com/2018/10/21/ready-set-blog-divine-mission-possible/

    2) I am not sure if you read my entire post, but I am asking all participants to invite or nominate one person to join the challenge. My goal is to expand the circle wider by including people that I do not know (yet)!

    Let me know if you have any questions. I am so pleased when someone becomes inspired by any of my ideas. 🙂

    peace, Linda

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    1. Thanks, Linda.
      I’ve added the link to your post within the badge at the beginning, but then I forgot to mention the fact within the text of my post. I shall correct that shortly.
      Also, I did read your post but overlooked point number two… I had an inkling I’d done something wrong! 😀 I’ll address that as well.
      Thanks for your challenge… it certainly got me thinking! 😀

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  2. Well…I guess it is good to lern moreabout you but I never know if this is the real you or something from your back mind. If it is the real you I am afraid I am concerned about some things. But then i can be a worry wart and mother hen at the same time.

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    1. Hi Beverly. Yes, this is the real me, from back in the day. I suppose it is to be expected for visitors to be unsure, especially as I do tend to write quite a lot based in a Surreal Reality, but when I do I (usually but not all the time!) tag it as that. I think I should start tagging the real life ones Real Life to mark the difference.
      I’m sorry if any of what I have written has given you cause for concern or worry, but please don’t worry. I’m fine. We travel many different avenues as we trundle through life and I’m just exploring this particular one right now.I’m OK with things as they are right now, so it’s all good.

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  3. Hey Tom, I’m not sure if I have been missing some of your posts of late. Could be me, I seem to busi’er in my retirement!
    I can so identify with much of what you say about being a Lightworker. Sometimes just Be-Ing is what we do. Spreading the Light in many ways. I did wonder about the disconnectedness thing. Somewhere once upon a time I remember reading that Lightworkers ‘exist’ on a different dimension, and this can contribute to feelings of disconnectedness. And the other fascinating bit was that we each live within our own created reality .. much to ponder on 🙂

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    1. Quite a lot to ponder, Raili, and the more we look the more to ponder we see!
      Please don’t worry about missing posts… I’m missing lots of them right now, although I seem to be busy doing nothing. I’m sure I am doing something, it just feels like I’m not. It’s all fun!

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  4. Tom I loved reading this post, and I am delighted you took up this challenge of Linda’s .. I am so pleased you made those taking up the training course more comfortable and you totally understood what they were going through, having gone through it yourself. And sort to reach out.. Loved the Huddle.. 🙂 Such connection in that bonding of being embraced by each other..
    I think many of us go through situations or experiences to enable us to connect to others.. I know my own journey and my own depression and breakdown showed me how those suffering from similar symptoms needed support and love…
    I find myself often the loner.. though I agree lonely is not the correct word , Like you I am quite content in my own company and feel no need to speak if I don’t need to.. Though you may not think that from the longish comments I often leave dotted around Lol..
    I have always found Tom that you are a deep thinker.. and more than connect with your spiritual side, and remember way back when you posted about that date and your feelings connected to that search..
    I am sure a past memory is registered there..
    Your posts are always full of imagination and fun, and I often come away from your posts with a smile..
    Now that in itself is a gift..
    Life is far too serious as it is.. So to be able to bring humour and twists within those fantasy posts you are so good at creating, to me is a gift you share so well..
    There are no boxes for a Lightworker to fit into.. We are all of us Unique, All of us have different ‘Missions’ and each of us approach them in various ways. To me all those who spread love and light are working for the light.

    An excellent read Tom.. And I loved that you shared a tiny bit more of yourself here…

    As an end note to those who seem to be distancing themselves from you, Maybe its not you, but maybe it is there energy you do not need in your awareness right now… I often would find periods where friends just drop off the radar and I took it that they no longer needed any energy from me..
    So long as you do not become a recluse lol…
    Sending Well wishes Tom..
    And hope you don’t have a bad hair day with the gales we are having at the moment..
    Take care Love and Blessings
    Sue 🙂 💚

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    1. Oh! Gah, Sue! Please don’t get me going on the hair!!! 😣🙄
      I think you are right regarding the energies… there’s definitely a mismatch there, but I just work around it and don’t let it bother me too much.
      I’m pleased you liked this post. After reading yours, and then misreading Linda’s challenge, I knew that I wanted to write and share this part of my story… obviously, there is more to tell, and one day soon, I may reveal just a little more. Being a ‘private person’ we shall see when.

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  5. Well done Tom!!! 🙂 ❤

    I’m happy you did such a good job of Linda’s Challenge!!! 🙂 ❤

    I have FINALLY found a place where everything makes sense among people who understand what I have been struggling to deal with for a Lifetime!!! 🙂 ❤

    The Sleeper Has Awakened!!! 🙂 ❤

    Prenin.

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