Releasing my Blocks

I’ve been experiencing all kinds of things getting in my way today. While I was in work, for some reason I had to ask for help with a situation that I knew how to handle. So I was even getting in my own way!

While driving, other drivers would be going very slow, or deciding to turn suddenly or stop suddenly in front of me. Traffic lights would change to red and stay that way for ages (I always say twenty minutes because it feels like I’m waiting that long… but it isn’t really!) While swimming, other swimmers would be swimming at me. Parents would be waiting in front of me, asking their child to kick their legs. Kids would be flipping themselves upside down in the water, or dive bombing into the water, ignoring anyone else who is in the pool.

Regarding swimming, don’t get me wrong. It is a public pool, and everyone is entitled to use it. Occasionally, others will get in the way – it’s just the nature of going swimming. But tonight, every length I swam there was somebody preventing me from completing it fully, without me swimming around them.

When I drove home from the pool, other motorists would be driving slowly, preventing me pulling out onto the main road, only to speed up after I had pulled out behind them.

So, something is trying to get a message to me. I’m either trying to do something too fast and I’m being slowed down, or I’m being guided to stop. Everything happens for a reason, and whatever happens to us, we attract into our lives whether we are aware of it or not. The question is what am I being guided to do (or not as the case may be…)?

The majority of the blocks occurred in the pool, so this would indicate something to do with my swimming. I’m sticking to my seventy lengths an hour at present, which isn’t too fast, so I don’t think it’s that. However, I did do 74 lengths today, so I may be pushing things if I try to increase the number of lengths I swim at this present time. It might have something to do with me wanting to lose weight quickly… maybe I’m rushing into that too quickly, and need to take things a little more slowly. Now there’s a thought. But, having said that, I’m not losing weight quickly – I have lost half a stone since I began swimming, but since then my weight has been constantly the same. So maybe I’m just being advised to keep an eye on my weight. It can’t hurt if I do this, so there’s one thing I must do as a result of what has been happening around me recently. I must also try to be less impatient when I am swimming. I am conscious of the time, and try to rush to get all of my lengths in. I don’t need to rush that much as I can swim all of my lengths comfortably in an hour. There we go, answer number two.

The blocks while driving seem to be pretty highly noticable at present too, so maybe these are telling me to chill out a little, take things easier. It doesn’t matter if the lights are red for ages. It doesn’t matter if someone else is impatient on the road… they’ll soon be seeing their blocks too. There’s no point rushing in heavy traffic, so just go with the flow. I can categorically say that the blocks while driving are not telling me to slow down, because I don’t speed. I always stick to the speed limit, which may annoy other drivers. But if I’m chilling out while driving, they’l just have to overtake me or chill behind me. I do find some other drivers frustrating though. The ones who use their mobile phones whilst driving. The ones who wait in a box junction while other cars are waiting to go in a different direction. The impatient drivers who are driving that close behind, they are practically in the boot. And the couldn’t-care-less drivers who weave in and out of the traffic to try and beat the queue. Perhaps I’m being advised to not even bother about these other drivers, which I know, deep down, that is exactly what I should do. They have no idea that I am frustrated by how they are acting. I can’t do anything to change it, but by thinking about how they are acting I am bringing more examples to me to notice. Yep… that’s it! I’m being advised to stop concerning myself with other driver’s actions.

So as a result of whatever blocks I have been coming across today, I have gained three positive actions that I must undertake in order for my experience to be better:

1. Keep an eye on my weight and don’t expect to lose weight too fast – my health is important

2. Be less impatient while swimming – I can easily swim what I need to within the hour

3. Do not concern myself with the actions of others… they are external to me and my happiness is within. I can’t change what is going on around me, but I can change the way that I think about it.

I feel better already for typing that. It’s sometimes easier to write about what has been going on to gain the clarification needed rather than to just mull it over in the mind. Within a short time, all of these negative blocks of mine will be released, and I can bring more events into my life that will improve my happiness. And that most certainly is not a bad thing.